marah

gosh, I am so easily annoyed! and being pregnant menambah2kan lagi perasaan yg membuak2 itu! and it suprised me that some ppl boleh nak terasa hati balik kat i... 

wat the?

if u cant say anything nice... then shut the hell up! and jgn terkezut la pulak, when I can be more evil than you!

theres no in between with me, either you like me.. or you just hate me! there were times when ive lost frens coz they cant believe how dasyat i can change.. no more ms nice narisha.. and ive never regretted... loosing any of them! they can go round telling rumors bout me, i dun give a flying f!

uish, along the way pregnant nih... there's just sssoooooooooooooo MANY ppl/statements/advices/jokes around me yg tak pernah dipinta... berlalu di depan mata ku... wahh! kadang2 terkumat kamit mulut ni nak membalas dgn nada yg sakit hati and marah! hehe.. uish, Alhamdulillah, Allah still loves me.. and save me (also them) from all the unpretty sight anyone can ever imagine...! haha..

Kesabaran saya masih ada... hehe.. Iman kuat lagi la, Insyallah.

kadang2 setengah org dia ingat, pemikiran and mulut dia jer yg terel la... boleh membunuh hati and perasaan seseorang tu kan? perli2... nasihat2... statement...wah wah, cam dia sorang ada otak and mulut gitu! org lain ada telinga jer... sbb bodoh sgt kena nak dgr kata2 hikmah dorang...! nak wat camna kan? mak bapak dorang dah didik camtu.. u shud always be on top... dont let ppl bully you...

punya tahap takut berada kat bawah, org lain yg takde sama otak ngan dia.. nak kena argue ngan dia sampai satu dunia sujud and bersetuju tiada makhluk lain dalam dunia nih yg lebih betul dari dia... kalau tak, perghhh muncung panjang sedepaaa...!

theres no other way, unless its their way!!

at times, I just want to be alone... wait, most of the time.. I WANT TO BE ALONE!

im just too frusted with some ppl in my life ...

from now onwards, im on ANTI-SOCIAL mode..
(now I understand why you dont see my brother that often..! haha- clever boy)

Rainy day

I've aways thought that am one lucky person...

But I guess I was wrong... or maybe, not anymore...

I cant stop crying since I woke up this morning... alot of things came crossed my mind.. i am stil in pain, for a stupid MISTAKE that someone else did. wait, not just once, but too many times...

Its getting unbearable... I cant cope with it anymore...

I feel so depressed and he claimed that I am living in the past.

You wouldnt know, until u face it yourself. Which I pray you will.

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Im sorry, my lil one. Sorry for dragging you into this today. I promise this will be the last day and I will be stronger that you will not see me cry again.

You are the reason thats keeping me alive.

I thank God for giving me, you...

INTRADE^ 08

Since my bosses found out that I am pregnant, mereka telah cuba utk meringankan my beban of work. Hehe Also everyone else was so helpful. Thanks everyone.

So this time around, I was not so much involved physically with INTRADE^ and was not allowed to even pegi to the tentage.. Which, so jauh and you know walking at this time of pregnancy might harm me or.. hm lets not say it la. But, however, still was so pening during KLI^TF and OC where I cant just stand still to make sure that everything else was in order.

None of my clients, knew that I was pregnant. Ceh, malas want to say. Like asking to pity ker apa kan. I'll help around as much as I can. But I do limit myself la... from walking too much... or beriya2 move around...

But as much as we try to make every event a perfect one... well, never will la. I mean, we all worked hard... everyone was. But, when it comes to the third party ker, then kena beserah la kan. Plus, must believe in Qada' & Qadar ya? We can only plan... I cant hide it, I was pretty dissapointed.

There was this time, when my client said that she mentioned to me that Tun^Mahathir who was the keynote speaker... requested for a brand of coffee (less caffine ker apa) for him. Masyallah.. I seriously can't remember her telling me... another client kata mmg she did informed dpn dia lagi... tapi seriously I tak ingat lansung.. aiishh.. sabar jer la.. being pregnant pun boleh jadi forgetful ker? hehe.. Alasan!

Maybe she did... the info just slipped off kot... hmm whatever...! Tun's ppl brought a few packet for him... so, selamat la... plus, time Tun dah nak turun for the Coffee Break baru la org tu teringat... ceshh...

Lain kali... be professional skit ya wahai org2 gomen atau semi gomen... EMAIL! os SMS! so with that you can tembak me if I lupa... tau.. cakap mulut dah takde makna di dunia IT ini...

I was so excited that this was my chance to meet my... hmm Idol ker? hehe.. someone I admire so dekat2.. I might get to ckp with him kan.... but suma tuh patahkan semangat terus... I didnt even sibuk nak masuk the room during the Press Interview... I just biar the operation jer.. MALAS tau!

Dpt tengok him from far pun dah happy... :) Maybe just not my luck la... wanted to salam and take pic with him.. aiishh... nvm, be positive and hopefully I'll get the chance to meet him again... kan?

Pastu ada another client of mine.. and from the same comp... ajak pegi to his event room to entertain his clients... apparently they are number 2 terel in the world... so they nak make sure they all happy and nak fix and test projector la... padahal event dia esok...

and he cant haf the otak that everyone from my side is busy with this big event that is going on?. My my my... So since I was so pissed and it was not my problem for them to kipas their clients... SO i just told him off... hahah... they did not make ANY kind of appoinment and arrangement with me beforehand... and I was the person in charge for KLITF^ yg tgh going ON gak.... I told him to wait at least an hour for us to get back to them...

Ya la... time KLITF^ plak tgh break... kan? its only fair kan for me and most importantly... for my crew yg tgh kerja kan? ish ish.. nasib baik he agreed.. I dun care la dia manager ker apa situ.. dun susahkan for your own good tau tak.. ish so typical of them...! GEram!

Yang bestnya... we haf a booth, managed by Farah and Haizan... hehe menjadi tempat lepak la.. hehe.. decorated by Shah. Focusing more on our wedding package...

Esok is the last day... hmm.. cam lega kan? tapi lepas ni akan kecoh pasal menda lain pulak... hehe.. the billing... wat invoice.. If I have missed anything kan? Nasib baik client dlm bangunan sama.. hehe..

Ok la.. me hungry... tata!

Ohh... Jessie is coming back soon.. so yeay!!! Yaya also... yeayyy yoo!