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u know...

i wrote a pretty long entry just now...
about how unfair life is...
and about the things that i hate about myself. about not able to express what i truly feel. afraid that i might hurt others and/or hurt myself with what ppl might say or do to me.

pastu i dah start 'mengarut' pasal byk menda... and i delete balik... coz some would get me into trouble kalau i ckp... so... mmg takleh hilang la tu... i just cant express myself. i hide my true feelings kan?

and this is my blog?!! cesh!!

English - I love you
Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumen
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bengali - Ami tomake bhalobashi (pronounced: Amee toe-ma-kee bhalo-bashee)
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a
Catalan - T'estimo
Cherokee - Tsi ge yu i (Thanks Nancy!)
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Elvish - <3Amin mela lle (from The Lord of The Rings, by J.R.R. Tolkien) * i didnt know but got his name... i like!!
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg
Farsi - Doset daram
Filipino - Mahal kita
Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Frisian - Ik hâld fan dy
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha Au Ia`oe
Hebrew
Hebrew to male: "ani ohev otcha" (said by male) "Ohevet ot'cha" (said by female)
Hebrew to female: "ani ohev otach" (said by male) "ohevet Otach" (said by female)
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szerelmes vagyok beléd(Thanks Csaba!)
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Heyo
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - Tave myliu
Luxembourgeois - Ech hun dech gäer
Macedonian - Te Sakam
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Maltese - Inhobbok
Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita!!
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te iubesc
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing'I Love You')
Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux - Techihhila
Slovak - Lu`bim ta
Slovenian - Ljubim te
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
Swedish - Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
Surinam - Mi lobi joe
Tagalog - Mahal kita
Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)
Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Vietnamese - Anh ye^u em (to female)
Vietnamese - Em ye^u anh (to male)
Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu di
Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba - Mo ni fe

*bold - the ones that i know...

shoes

im going crazy now... if only i haf a credit card (like someone yang baru dpt hehe) i dah habis giler banyak duit only in this evening jer.. heeh.. im crazy for shoes...! but i tak pernah pergi beli coz the ones that i like giler babi mahal.. so i terus tak beli lansung.. its hard to get the ones i really suka... ! but now, gosh! i dah tak tau mana satu nak pilih pulak! i gi surf kat websites cam Salvatore Ferragamo (my all time fave!!), Manolo Blahnik, Stuart Weitzman, Bruno Magli, Gucci and Giuseppe Zanotti. and gosh... i love them all...!

i cam baru nak jadi 'perempuan' agaknya! heheheh... i never really cared bout all these.. cam i know i couldnt afford them, so i just biar menda tu la.. haf seen a few of their product and took them lightly la.. was afraid if i jadi like what i am now.. heheh sabar la, nanti dah kerja...!! i want to save and pegi shopping!! shopping cam i tak pernah...!! ni baru kasut... dont let me started with BAGS!!! ohhh shit..! apa dah jadi ngan i nih...? yeah la Bie, bagus idea u tu.. not to haf kids until we are 40! ehhh 40 tua sgt la plak.. 30 can la.. i still want to haf them when im still YOUNG! apa apa pun, i nak shopping.. i dah simpan my nafsu shopping for TOO LONG!!

anyways.. biasa la emo kan... here are the shoes yg i dpt collect.. byk lagi actually but some sites tak kasi amik kan.. so too bad..








yeaaa... saya telah menghabiskan hari saya dgn kasut2 and tiara.... tapi saya suka... esok saya start study balik ya?

i hafta stop here.. on his way... and my bro nak guna line..
LOVE...!

tiaras

do u like tiaras? i spent the whole time today to find the one i like.. with Amee. now we are looking for shoes..! hehe

help me to choose tiara mana yg paling best for the wedding... ehehe


Elysian Tiara

Tsarina Tiara

Celtic Queen Tiara

Marquis Tiara

crazy beautiful huh? i love all four of them... the one on top, yg paling i suka la.. heheh.. im so excited! cehhh, when i woke up this morning... (it takes me lama la nak bangun from tido) and duduk.. tertiber jer i realized dat i only haf FOUR months.. FOUR full months till i get married!!! gilerr...!! and now im super nervous...

R3 Street Shoot Out 5.5

*click image kalau nak lagi besaaaaarrrr....!

u gals wanna go for this tak? im planning to go.. but no kawans-kawans to go with la.. ! jom la pegi... btw, sayang.. if we go kan dpt official passes ker? heh heh heh..!

i'll be there for you

i'll be there for you

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
Well as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love is suicide
You say you've cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore
I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance girl

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe, I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
Well I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your Valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you

I wasn't there when you were happy
And I wasn't there when you were down
Didn't mean to miss your birthday baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for ...

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you ...


i went crazy when bon jovi sang this song at their concert back in '95 ! the best ever concert la...!

amin was there as well.. but with someone else.. haha

i was there with a few friends.. khaty, ween and dora.j.. good times!

down

i feel so down like fuck la...!!

i just found out that i haf exam... ! wth!! my lecturer said that it will be on the 14th and 18th! shit! since i didnt pay for my fees (only today that i got the chance) i was barred from the Finance Department. so the whole time, i cant view my timetable. and luckily, today dapat nak bayar fees! aiseeyyy!! nasib la baik i pay attention in class that i dont feel so lost in the subject esok. sabar giler!

and today i went to submit my report 3 of my thesis. my stupid lecturer is so bloody mengada la.. tak pasal2 i kena marah coz i tak responsible! kepala hotak dier! i made a mistake, once.. biler i hantar my work... the 1st time, i signed kat nama yg salah.. so i just continued signing kat nama yg salah the whole time. (bangang! sapa suruh type and buat kotak giler kecik?!!) so my attendance dah kira kosong. Ms Neo Mai ( the Senior Lecturer ) called me up to jumpa coz she nak barr me from the subject. i went to see her, she asked "napa i tak antar all my work?" i said "i did!!! all to mr hew" she said balik.. "oh its ok, i will check with him. but dun worry, u will not get barred. ur lecture attandance is very good" so dah settle la situ. everytime that i kena hantar my work. i never missed! pastu today miss neo mai mailed to mr hew saying that "N*****a I***k told me that she lost her abstract, report 1 and report 2 that she submitted to u" ni sorang lagi buat aku bengang tak pasal2 ari nih...! so mr hew marah i pasal tu for LYING to ms neo mai. konon i didnt submit, and utk lepaskan diri, i create menda camtu. me hew even called ms neo mai tadi infront of me to make sure that i wasnt lying...! percaya tak? they all buat kerja ntah apa apa ntah and senang2 nak accuse me for lying to them! ntah apa ms new mai said to him, that one thing, im not barred and told mr hew to settle the PROBLEM. mr hew nih ada masalah... 1- cakap cam budak 5 tahun.. GAGAP! 2- he tak ingat what he said to me before. 3- tak tau nak buat attandace shit! bloody gampang! he deal dgn orang lain cara lain, ngan i cara lain. when i submit my work, he check dan dan tu... when ada salah.. he btulkan time tu and told me tu buat balik. and i DID! tapi he ajar i balik pulak menda lain... "when u submit to me, u come back the week after that and collect ur paper. then u know what went wrong. but, u did not!" cilaka! apa kes ni kan?!! and he said, he wants to fail me la suma...! kepala dier ahhh... but i did not lawan tadi. coz i didnt bring the paper dulu2 tu. i just came to submit what i had to for today. so kalau lawan, takde bukti, again aku kena accuse apa pulak kan? so i just kept quiet. tunggu la ko next week. aku hentam balik sampai gagap ko lagi teruk, tak pun terus baik gagap tu! again, today was also ari yg we all kena datang submit and collect our report 2. it was stated kat bulletin board. i remember so i came. mr hew can ask me, why i did not came last week and collect my report 2!!! and today he kept both my reports utk apa i dunno and told me to come back next week and he will tolong with my problems.. apa yg i dah salah buat! i just said ok. now i haf collected all the papers yg he dah btul kan.. and next week when i see him... or maybe esok gak, i will go see him and show that mr gagap that hes WRONG! i tgh baik this semester, jgn nak fuck it up.

yeahh... if u dont know... i haf problems EVERYTIME my semester nak abis. for the whole 4 years camtu. macam2 problems la yg datang.. mmg nak test kesabaran btul! dah la tu MMU.. penat sial nak layan korangnya kerenah nak suffer kan students... kalau duit, nak cepat ajer...!! sepak kang! class pun cam kandang lembu. suma tak cukup. parking tau nak saman jer, tapi parking space skit cam student ada 500 jer.. sibuk nak check keta biler kuar.. takut sgt org curi computer yg 50% drpd apa yg ada takleh nak pakai. library pulak, sri bestari primary punya lagi byk buku! lecturers pulak, ada yg gagap, ada yg nak ckp english pun tak tau, tapi nak amik international students! fees super mahal! WOIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!! giler ker? kalau tau, baik masuk UITM ker UTM ker yg they all offer kat i..! course lagi mencabar.. architecture and comp science! buat creative multimedia pun cam nak jd doctor plak kecoh dier...! hishhh YA ALLAH, mana kesabaran i nih?!

i better end here... and start with my revision..

buhbye

engaged :)

heyaa...

hmm engagement...? well.. that went well.. alhamdulillah... tho ada byk gak kekecohan but smooth la... :)

i dunno how to thank each and everyone who came and helpd that day... and those who helped buat preparations suma.. aiyoo... im so lucky to haf family and frens that LOVES me like that.. :)

the day before the engagement, i was very busy with submission. no car, so mr3003 had to send me to my uni. me and oleen had to take the bus to go printing. and mom called said dat she cant pick me up coz she was very busy. i called my bro up and ask if i cud tumpang him. luckily he pun bajer lepas my uni. we went to Subang coz Wawa (bro's gf) kena buat some things.. then we went to Ismail mamak place in TTDI. for lunch. they ate like hell! aiyoo geramnya.. but i kena control la. i only had roti bakar. sabar jer la... terliur tgk depa makan!

we arrived umah around 6pm. masa tu tgh pasang khemah. wahhh cunted seeehhh! Wawa masuk to say hi ngan my mom & dad. lepaked lama la gak... coz she takleh datang for the event. not long after dat, Wawa balik and Auntie Gisselle & Uncle Najib came. and they brought my fave flowers! goshh!! Lilies, tuber roses, white and pink roses. and they didnt want to tell where they got all that from, outside Malaysia of coz. aisey... beautiful la!

later that nite, mom, bro and me went to SACC to pick up our baju. Mom's baju was like HELL! bodoh punyer SALIKIN SIDEK! mom was very sad about it. well, tu dier punyer first point utk sedey la.. alot more to come. cian giler. she paid so much for it. ya laa, mesti la she nak kena lawa kan, its her DAUGHTER punyer engagement kan... :) but she paid half. tak pernah i tgk my mom ngamuk kat org lain. but the ppl kat Salikin Sidek kena baik punya... nasib la ko!

mine was really nice. like it la.. i'll forever go to this guy and buat my baju la.. :)

then balik umah.. called up my auntie.. coz i nak tgk my hantaran.. she tak kasi... she said "takde thrill la nanti.." coz she nak buat cam suprise for me. so fine la kan... but sadly... lansung tak dapat tgk pun! lain jadi nya...

we went home, ate dinner. and bibi called (it was her bday pun that nite) she said she wants to come.. so no hal la... she came, siap kena angkat2 meja dah.. hehe.. it was really late dat i was already ngantuk.. she was pun. she decided to sleep over my place. the next morning.. she balik coz kena pi kerja.

i went back to sleep. and woke up around 1130am. i went down. the house was so lawa la. with flowers everywhere. so wangi..!! and yea, no one knows, i did my own rehearsel sorang2.. hahaha... i was the only one yg ada kat umah. okla, my bro ada, but was sleeping. i gi mandi. and bro went to McDs to buy us breakfast. layan citer Sepet jap since takde menda nak kena buat.

around 1pm, mom called told me to siap so we can go to the salon. tgh2 siap... sekali hujan dah.... aiseehhh... walaupun time tunang tu kena postpond tapi still kena balik... habis sial make up and my hair dat day..CIBAI! rosak...! sabar giler babi dah dat time.

biler sampai jer, amee was there. she wanted to suprise me tapi my dad dah rosakkan.. hahaha... she even told my dad jgn ckp, tapi... ckp gak. i went upstairs.. to get ready. the rain giler lebat, that tak bleh nak set up kan pun the tables and everything. giler kecoh gak la my family nak siapkan coz mr3003's family dah nak sampai.

tgh gopoh gapah, the Lolas came... and Jessie gaks.. aiyak sian they all tak dapat nak dilayan. pastu, start la the ceremony. suma smooth. uncle Najib said that it was the shortest pertunangan he ever pergi.. hahah..

took pics with all the couzies, frens, family... and the food was giler best! i cant stop thinking bout it la... perghhh!!! if only i cud turn back time. :)

biler suma dah abis... i celebrated my new year. alone in my room. and still pakai my green baju. heeheh biler lagi nak dpt pakai kan? hehe.. 10mins after dat, tukar baju. wished & hugged my parents and their frens happy new year and thank u for everything.

my bro sent me to Bie's house. saiko la kalau duk dlm bilik sorang. Gunz and bie's room mates and frens ada kat sana. they were drinking and all... and tgk movie. layan jer la... very frenly ppl... :) around 3am Gunz and Bie antar i balik. Mom and her frens still kat luar umah, talking. joined them.

i went up around 6am to sleep after borak2 with dad. :)

the next day we went to PeterPans concert. best la the show. pics nanti la.. i super malas skang.. ada assignment due yesterday pun i tak buat lagi... SUPER MALAS!! and i dun care ! hahah..

adios ppl!