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i feel so down like fuck la...!!

i just found out that i haf exam... ! wth!! my lecturer said that it will be on the 14th and 18th! shit! since i didnt pay for my fees (only today that i got the chance) i was barred from the Finance Department. so the whole time, i cant view my timetable. and luckily, today dapat nak bayar fees! aiseeyyy!! nasib la baik i pay attention in class that i dont feel so lost in the subject esok. sabar giler!

and today i went to submit my report 3 of my thesis. my stupid lecturer is so bloody mengada la.. tak pasal2 i kena marah coz i tak responsible! kepala hotak dier! i made a mistake, once.. biler i hantar my work... the 1st time, i signed kat nama yg salah.. so i just continued signing kat nama yg salah the whole time. (bangang! sapa suruh type and buat kotak giler kecik?!!) so my attendance dah kira kosong. Ms Neo Mai ( the Senior Lecturer ) called me up to jumpa coz she nak barr me from the subject. i went to see her, she asked "napa i tak antar all my work?" i said "i did!!! all to mr hew" she said balik.. "oh its ok, i will check with him. but dun worry, u will not get barred. ur lecture attandance is very good" so dah settle la situ. everytime that i kena hantar my work. i never missed! pastu today miss neo mai mailed to mr hew saying that "N*****a I***k told me that she lost her abstract, report 1 and report 2 that she submitted to u" ni sorang lagi buat aku bengang tak pasal2 ari nih...! so mr hew marah i pasal tu for LYING to ms neo mai. konon i didnt submit, and utk lepaskan diri, i create menda camtu. me hew even called ms neo mai tadi infront of me to make sure that i wasnt lying...! percaya tak? they all buat kerja ntah apa apa ntah and senang2 nak accuse me for lying to them! ntah apa ms new mai said to him, that one thing, im not barred and told mr hew to settle the PROBLEM. mr hew nih ada masalah... 1- cakap cam budak 5 tahun.. GAGAP! 2- he tak ingat what he said to me before. 3- tak tau nak buat attandace shit! bloody gampang! he deal dgn orang lain cara lain, ngan i cara lain. when i submit my work, he check dan dan tu... when ada salah.. he btulkan time tu and told me tu buat balik. and i DID! tapi he ajar i balik pulak menda lain... "when u submit to me, u come back the week after that and collect ur paper. then u know what went wrong. but, u did not!" cilaka! apa kes ni kan?!! and he said, he wants to fail me la suma...! kepala dier ahhh... but i did not lawan tadi. coz i didnt bring the paper dulu2 tu. i just came to submit what i had to for today. so kalau lawan, takde bukti, again aku kena accuse apa pulak kan? so i just kept quiet. tunggu la ko next week. aku hentam balik sampai gagap ko lagi teruk, tak pun terus baik gagap tu! again, today was also ari yg we all kena datang submit and collect our report 2. it was stated kat bulletin board. i remember so i came. mr hew can ask me, why i did not came last week and collect my report 2!!! and today he kept both my reports utk apa i dunno and told me to come back next week and he will tolong with my problems.. apa yg i dah salah buat! i just said ok. now i haf collected all the papers yg he dah btul kan.. and next week when i see him... or maybe esok gak, i will go see him and show that mr gagap that hes WRONG! i tgh baik this semester, jgn nak fuck it up.

yeahh... if u dont know... i haf problems EVERYTIME my semester nak abis. for the whole 4 years camtu. macam2 problems la yg datang.. mmg nak test kesabaran btul! dah la tu MMU.. penat sial nak layan korangnya kerenah nak suffer kan students... kalau duit, nak cepat ajer...!! sepak kang! class pun cam kandang lembu. suma tak cukup. parking tau nak saman jer, tapi parking space skit cam student ada 500 jer.. sibuk nak check keta biler kuar.. takut sgt org curi computer yg 50% drpd apa yg ada takleh nak pakai. library pulak, sri bestari primary punya lagi byk buku! lecturers pulak, ada yg gagap, ada yg nak ckp english pun tak tau, tapi nak amik international students! fees super mahal! WOIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!! giler ker? kalau tau, baik masuk UITM ker UTM ker yg they all offer kat i..! course lagi mencabar.. architecture and comp science! buat creative multimedia pun cam nak jd doctor plak kecoh dier...! hishhh YA ALLAH, mana kesabaran i nih?!

i better end here... and start with my revision..

buhbye