after exam

ok ok... its my turn.. :)

my exams suma dah OVER... so im FRrrreeeeeee wait a sec, blum lagi... like yesterday i woke up, thinking.. ohh dah abis exam can wake up anytime pun.. sekali teringat, i had appointment with my auntie.. eisseeehhh...!!

anyways... after my 2nd last paper... i went to Ms J's place... mom told me to pegi sana and hantar presents my mom bought in Vietnam. and last2 we exchanged gifts! heheh.. Ms J and her mom bought us Tshirts from Australia and extra special pressies for me!! yeaahhh!! a " NO WORRIES MATE" tag (is that what u call it?) for my car and a Purple Billabong bag.. aiseyyy super cuntedddd!! I LOVE THEM giler byk...!! TQ TQ TQ so muuchhh!! and of coz, with Ms J, fotografi session laaa kan... hehehe

lepaked at her place lama la jugak.. tgk2 and carik pics for the slideshow... byk la rupanya gambar family i tak pernah tgk.. ada gak jadi jakun jap.. hehe i had to leave coz ada appoinment ngan Min.

YEsteday plak, after exam, went to Shah Alam again.. to buat fitting ngan the tailor for all my baju kurung. bought KFC and tak sedap. lepaked at maksu's house and discuss bout wedding. tanya i apa i nak suma... gosh, i dun care..! as long as everyone is HAPPY, then im HAPPY. seriously... :)

then pegi jumpa pat, we talked.. and lepaked.. been a long time jugak la since we dpt borak2 panjang.. ntah naper, tiber2 plak pi jumpa Walla... hehe.. sabar jer la.. and got back pretty late gak la.. nasib baik umah Walla pun dekat.. :)

and today.. jadi la pulak menda giler and made me tak betul satu hari. MY room is super 'berkecah' skang nih... well, yestrday la.. since i had to kuar and bawak my auntie beli barang2, and ada dinner last nite.. i just grabbed all my stuff. and my ring i just pegang. masa nak off aircond, my ring jatuh, and i tak dapat cari mana dier jatuh.. lama btul nak cari... sbb takde bunyi masa dier jatuh.. then i went to bukak my comp, my meja suma.. to clear kan the place and cari... still tak jumpa.. sedey btul.. dah la i was late dah...

so i just left the house... risau dier, tuhan jer la yg tau... kalau ring tu beli sendiri... mungkin tak seteruk ni la i rasa kan? so pegi la buat2 menda yg patut.. went to Art Attack to buy colours for the hantaran and some other shops.

by this time, i was already late for the dinner. aishhh lambat lagi! but we had fun la...

still, my trmper sungguh teruk ari nih.. ngan suma org i nak gaduh... coz marah btul ngan diri sendiri... tau nak balik ajerr...!! i want to cari my RING!!!

sampai umah pulak around 11sumthing.. since tu untill 3am.. i tak stop kemas bilik to cari my ring... i almost gave up.. utk malam tadi la.. dah penat.. ingat nak sambung later..

i sat down.. and start to selawat. byk kali la i buat tu.. hati ni mmg susah nak ckp camna rasa dier.. sekali, i get a picure mana the ring might be tau... i terdiam jap.. and terus bangun and pegi kat my curtains... the place exactly yg i nampak tu.. and Alhamdulillah.. the RING was there!!! perghh selamat.. sampai skang tak bukak lagi la the ring.. takut babe!

hati dah lega... terus angkat my CPU to my bro's room yg dah siap kemas and start online! hehehe... cannot tahan la tak online.. !

masa makan spag bolognese kat San Francisco Steak House, sedap giler macam kat DAVES!! perghhh!! sila pergi kepada mereka yg SFSH kat bawah opis dier jer.. hehehe

tadi poyo, tak larat nak makan.... makan skit jer.. skang dah laparrr... ooooooohhhh my auntie kasi PAU! yeah yeahh... nak pi goreng pau jap...

nites...!!

oh wait.. im getting married soon, and i still cant believe it.. WAKE ME UP!

my savvy

wassssuppp... berasaaappp.. pat hamsaaapppp...

hahahah

yeahhh... im excited and happy!

why?

i finally dapat my GREEN SAVVY!!

got it last friday... mr3003 hantar to my grandma's place..

parents kat Vietnam, coming back today, so im gonna pick them up with my new car.. huakhuak..

btw,

CONGRATULATIONS

to

Fara and One..

they got married yesterday..

and reception pulak esok.. :)

im one of her usherettes..

heheh... pics will update soon.. as i dun haf my camera now.. nak mitak jasa baik cik Pat atau cik Ieza for pics.. :)

[prettypeektures is her photog for tomoro's event]

1st pic- car air freshener that i got from Njwa[bro's gf] when she was on holiday kat London. matches my car ey?

2nd pic- pic of my car and mr3003's

3rd - front view of our car

[camera quality la pics suma]

oklah, im going to go study now..

take care everyone!

LOVE

hadith

i found this last nite, from a dear friend

Manusia Hawa diciptakan dari rusuk manusia Adam bukan dari kepala untuk menjadi atasnya dan bukan dari kaki untuk menjadi alasnya bahkan dari sisinya untuk dijadikan teman hidupnya dekat dengan lengan untuk dilindungi dekat di hatinya untuk di CINTAI

-Maksud Al Hadith Rasulullah SAW

...Allah...

hey alll....

i am feeling better now..

last nite, i wanted to finish up my assignment that is due today... its the software that i really hate... Maya... nice name but i hate it! hehe masa nak start up, they asked for my activation key which means that the software is now expired.. i mean the license. baru jer ari tu i bukak to buat assignment.. i was so bengang... and afraid this might effect my grades... as i already know.. i SUCK big time kat this subject... SERIOUS ly... if i were to take Accounting subject ker, i think i can score tu drpd Maya nih!! by the way, Maya is a software for animation. the ones u see they all buat movie utk Monsters Inc and suma tu la... imagine me doing that? GIler babs SUSAH OK!!!!

setelah beberapa minggu saya didalam keadaan yg kurang stabil... depressed.. well, quietly depressed, malas nak citer... sampai sanggup nak tarik nyawa sendiri... so problem Maya membuatkan saya menjadi kurang stabil semula... fuishhh!!!

i was so panicked... and it was around 3am.. i didnt haf anyone to talk to... or to call... or anything as i dun want to disturb sesapa pun kan... yea la, esoknya nak kerja kan... i couldnt sleep... i dah habis air mata nak nangis.. i just sat down.. and THINK of ways i can do... i tried to find Maya installer... gosh, i tell u ok.. if u are thinking of belaja Maya... to find a really good installer in KL is SUPER SUSAH... macam nak cari harta karun! i bought like almost 10 installers... and never satu pun yg bleh install!!! yes, im not kidding u!! and to crack the activation code is another problem... but last year, i got a fren that has the installer yg dpt crack the code... borrowed hers and till then... i tak pernah uninstall Maya from my computer. so i jusr ikhtiar from the CDs that i haf to reinstall and crack the code... berjam2 i tried, but tak menjadi... sheeesss...!! crazy laa... thats the worst part when dealing with technical stuff like this..! or when any of my assignments (well, most of them) depends on DESIGN SOFTWARES...

i was so bloody restless... i didnt know wat to do... i tot of so many things... one is to ask Olen if she can help me with this.. and so i SMSed her... when she dah bangun she can gimme a call...

meanwhile.. serba tak kena apa pun... i called up mr3003 at 630am... i thot he dah bangun [sorry to wake u up sayang].. i told him yg i tgh tak ok suma.. and he told me to amik air sembahyang and sembahyang...

so i pun turun la kebawah... and amik air sembahyang... kat luar matahari dah mula naik... it was 7am.. so i cant pray... :( i went up to my room.. and search on the internet.. utk nak tau, biler masa nak baca doa qunut biler solat Subuh... honestly, i has been i think ONE YEAR that i tak sembahyang.. and i forgot how to or when exactly to baca Doa qunut...

luckily, last Ramadhan.. i took the initiative to hafal dao Qunut.. and Alhamdulillah... i managed. yea la.. Solat Subuh ntah baper lama dah tak semahyang kan!

so i read about Doa Qunut.. i found out that it is not Wajib utk baca masa Solat Subuh... its only Sunat Ab'adh (sunat yang dituntut) utk mazhab Syafie. but, kalau tak baca doa qunut disunatkan pulak utk 'Sujud Sahwi'... apa apa pun, if both, Doa Qunut and Sujud Sahwi tak dilakukan dalam Solat Subuh... solat tersebut masih SAH.

haaa dah jadi Uztazah dah plak... hehe

and later i found out that, Doa Qunut ni jugak adalah doa apabila kaum muslimin mengalami bencana, kesusahan dah sebagainya...

so, since tak boleh tido... i just baring and baca Doa Qunut sampai la tertido. Ya Allah, for a long yang i tak dpt tido senyenyak last nite. went i woke up... i was all fresh! i thank to Allah, sbb kasi kesenangan utk tido malam semalam... and since then, i realized... mmg dah tau pun... tapi kesedaran yg lebih yang TIADA SAPA dalam dunia nih, dapat tolong atau tenangkan hati, kalau bukan Dia. and sungguh sgt menyesal ngan suma dosa yang i dah buat.. and selama membelakangkan Tuhan. by that, i mean... tak sembahyang.. and lifestyle yang tak ikut jalan yang btul.. THO i always ingat Tuhan.. TAPI kalau ingat tanpa ikut perintah and suruhan Allah... tak guna jugak kan? mungkin itu sebabnya jugak... i was never happy with what i have.. hati tak tenang.. and selalu datang kesusahan.

so, i promised myself... to stop buat menda2 yang tak elok lagi... and start penuhkan waktu sembahyang dalam satu hari... :) insyallah...

last nite, i went out with mr3003... we went back to his place.. and i told him... i told him the thing that i've been keeping to myself.. the things yang buat i super stress... and nangis tu sudah wajib la, if u know me kan.. ull know that la.. haha i felt so good after that.. :) he was listening to every word.. and he faham.. [i think so] well, gosh, for the past few days both of us asik salah faham jer.. hehe.. so i was soo soo senang hati.. well, at least i felt better than yesterday.. and he pun pujuk and calm me down la.. aiseyy, lagi la best kan :)

so tadi, masa on the way balik... dah super ngantuk.. biler nak tido tadi... i started to fikir balik all these problems that i haf... geez.. i just could not, duk diam and stop thinking... mmg kacau hidup terus... so i went down again like last nite... and mandi... went upstairs again to take telekung and sejadah from my mom's cupboard. since the house, upstairs agak bersepah.. berpasir sebab renovation nih.. so i cant sembahyang kat atas.. i went down again, and i tot.. semahyang kat bawah la lagi aman.. i'll be all alone.. plus nak amik air sembahyang pun kat bawah...

and masa nak amik air sembahyang tu... byk kali sgt batal... coz shi-shi {ada ker tulis camtu kan?} but true la.. i cannot stop... everytime start balik amik air semahyang... batal... i think i was in the toilet for almost and hour... honestly, there are times jadi camtu... punya la kuat setan nih... i just gave up... but not just now.. hati punya la kuat utk sembahyang... i tried buat byk menda to stop batal... tapi tak dpt... at last... i prayed to god and told him... " if You are testing me, kalau btul ker tak kesungguhan i nak sembahyang nih... i would not give up this time.. i'll stay awake as long as i can... until i can sembahyang tonite" and a few times after that, it stopped. so i dapat la nak amik air semahyang dengan sempurna nya... lega, and happy tak tau la nak ckp camna...

bentang sejadah... turned on the aircond... pakai telekung.. baca Surah An-Nas.. and i start my prayers... I WAS SO BLOODY PROUD OF MYSELF... :)

masa habis sembahyang... start la crying, askingfor His Forgivenss... utk diri sendiri, parents, loved ones, family, frens, and suma umat Islam... and macam2 doa lagi la.. takkan nak citer sini kan..

gosh, super lega and tenang sgt hati nih... :)

Alhamdulillah... Allah still loves me... Dia masih mendengar doa and kekesalan i... :)

Hopefully... lepas nih.. I'll be closer to Him. Before its too late.

its 5:42 am... dah Azan Subuh.. im gonna get ready..

btw, here are some usefull links...

[Asas Solat] & [Doa]

take care! Assalamualaikum. :)
LOVE!

lyrics

.Awie. .Iris.
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kau masih kucintai, sungguh
dari awal dulu hingga hari ini
aku pasti seyakinnya pasti
kau lah satu untuk ku

kau masih dewi hatiku, sungguh
biar sejuta tahun hilang dihari
usah gusar, sayang usah ragu
aku milik mu

cintaku, jika ko tanya pada bintang
gemilauan sinar takkan hilang
akan aku sinari dunia mu
moga terpadam sangsi mu

cintaku, jika ko lihat tingginya awan
takkan tercakar tinggi cintaku
hanya hatiku tau apa mahuku
dan duniaku pastinya milikmu
hingga ke akhir hayatku

kau masih kucintai, sungguh..
dari hari pertama kau kunikahi
aku pasti, yakin dan pasti
engkau milikku....


.Corrine Bailey Rae. .Like a Star.
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Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I’ll never be the same.

Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Only to love you…

Still I wonder why it is,
I don’t argue like this,
With anyone but you…

We do it all the time,
Blowin’ out my mind.

You’ve got this look I can’t describe,
You make me feel I’m alive,
When everything else is unfair,
Without a doubt you’re on my side.

Heaven has been way too long,
Gon’ find the words to write this song,
Oh your love…

Still I wonder why it is,
I don’t argue like this,
With anyone but you…

We do it all the time,
Blowin’ out my mind.

Yeah…
(Skit)

I have come to understand the way it is,
It’s not a secret anymore,
‘Cos we’ve been through that before.

From tonight I know that you’re the only one,
I’ve been confused and in the dark,
But now I understand.

Yeah…
Oh…

Still I wonder why it is,
I don’t argue like this,
With anyone but you…

I wonder why it is,
I won’t let my guard down,
For anyone but you…

We do it all the time,
Blowin’ out my mind.

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I’ll never be the same.

Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands…

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