Tuesday, November 7

fuck up

here i am again... the same spot i was 5 months ago... for the same reason... depression of one bloody stoopid subject that i hate OHHH SOO MUCH!!!

i dun know how to describe to u... im VERY (very i ni dah melampau!) weak in this particular subject. and everytime i take the same subject, i get really depressed. i feel like a failure. im facing it coz i REALLY haf to. i dun understand why I still haf to take this subject biler mmg dah sah sah im not gonna do it in future. MAJOR aku pun dah abis.. thesis pun dah berjaya lepas. practical pun dah pergi, siap bleh buat xtra period lagi sbb dah syiok... and why is MMU* so bloody mean huh?!!!? nak duit la tu!! mmg bankrap la aku nanti!

ive talked to my lecturers, my Assistant Dean of FCM.. ive done almost everything.. but theres no other way but to buat gak this subject.

penat dah la sgt..! serious.. penat sgt..! and kenapa susah sgt for me to at least PASS this subject..??! arghh...!

before i got married, ive posted pasal i cant sleep.. thinking about my results coz i knew i was gonna.. fail.. and i prayed. Asked Allah for His help to help me, help me to forget bout it, be strong and redha. and Alhamdulillah, till then i was OK. it didnt bother me at all.

and now, i cant sleep. i think about alota stuff. i think about the same ppl i hafta meet for 2 months. the hardwork. well, hardwork tu mmg la kan.. dah kata belajar. and buat pun Degree. nak senang2 dapat tak bleh la kan? but seriously, this case its luar biasa.

whats worst is, i dunno anyone taking the same subject. and ill be all alone again. geez!!

oh, did i tell ya? i haf a fren who decided to tukar course just because of this subejct! she did a year of foundation tapi decided nak blah coz she cannot tahan! kesian kan?

anyways, back to my story. hehe.. i just cant sleep. i hafta to write it here. hope this will work. agak2 bleh ke tido pasni?

and sbb ni jugak. my mood dah lintang pukang! i easily marah. and i just want to be alone most of the time.

apa apa pun.. its sumthing that i hafta face gak. no matter what. Insyallah, baper susah i dah pegi dulu. im gonna try harder this time. im gonna finish everything by December. and i'll be done with it. and finally, dapatlah jua:

BMm (Hons) Creative Multimedia, Majoring in Interface Design

if u r wondering Mm tu utk apa, its- Multimeda.. haha.. Sulik* uh Professor tu pun pelik.. hahha.. dulu it was BSc sejak biler plak course ni dah tukar BMm kan.. haha

ok ok... so apa apa pun..

I NEED to be strong. I NEED to be positive.

:) so frens (and couzie) , pls pray for me. :)

post ni ada unsur-unsur nak lepas geram. pastu motivate diri sendiri. heheh..

sapa lagi kalau bukan diri sendiri utk bakar semangat kan? :)

it helps a lil bit actually... im gonna go and try tidoq. dah ngatuk skit. or is it becoz dah pun 5:30am dah? hehe..

haf a good day everyone!

more updates to come ; Raya, Pics and oh, ive been tagged by Selena ( i cant wait to do it, tunggu time jer) hehe.. so sila la jenguk2 lagi kat sini nanti ya.. :)

bye!

Sunday, November 5

survey

i nak quit doing surveys in Friendster. i dun see the point dah. byk menda nak kena cover. hahaha..

1. what is ur biggest acomplishment today?
[ dapat la tido yg terlebih cukupnya. kemas umah sket. and of course, jumpa maktok, even for a while. ]

2. what time did u wake up?
[ 2.30pm. hihi]

3. what's for breakfast?
[ nada ]

4. missing any of ur frens?
[ just a few of them ]

5. what time did u sleep last nite?
[ after 3am. i get to see Muzik @ Ria Raya. Zahid jadik posmen. hihi cute in that uniform! ]

6. ur biggest crime?
[ woooshhh... kacau privacy org lain. which is not good i know, but, u know me.. u start dulu, and i'll do the same to u.. no matter if u haf stopped. im very the pendendam rite? haha.. too bad! ]

7. feel guilty to anyone?
[ yeap. a few ppl that ive promised to meet up/ go to their houses for raya. and i didnt. mula2 bz, skang dah im just so not in the mood for anything. i rarely talk. and with maktok's condition. geez. knowing that her time is near. mood apa yg tinggal? ]

8. on weekdays' nites,what do u do?
[ last week i was at my grandma's. we had baca Yassin for 3 nights in a row.if not, i'll be at home. too tired to do anything ]

9. weekends?
[ the time utk rest ]

10. someone or some people who u love?
[ MY FAMILY ]

11. do u think there r people who r missing u?
[ yessshhhh.... hehehe.. perasan! ]

12. what do u remember during ur childhood?
[ how playfool i was.. and i can easily make frens.. and manja to the max with my grand dad. gosh, how great kalau he's still alive. life would be different for me. :( ]

13. what do u remember about yesterday?
[ i was angry. for nothing ]

14. what do u wish to have right now?
[ a great job. a great body and hair. new shoes, bags and sunglasses (oakley plss!), the house is ALWAYS clean. and for my family to be happy jer selalu. and mom, to stop working hard and i can support her and bro too. ]

15. any food u r craving at the moment?
[ nada. no selera to eat. aceh! hehe ]

16. favorite movie(s)?
[ LOTR - Aragorn ku !! Hensem di dlm LOTR jer, filem lain.. hancus! ]

17. favorite animal?
[ Cat. Adopting one soon. If someone behaves well. hehe sounds like a mother now huh? ]

18. ur birthday last year?
[ dah tak ingat buat apa pun. oh, i had dinner with family. then we girls celebrated at The Beach Club. ada dedication lagi.. heheh ]

19. ur birthday this year?
[ i got married. my now husband forgot bout it... percaya tak? sabar jer la. but dun care la. had a good time of resting. mom gave me pills to relax.. haha and the girls got me a cake! ]

20. any msg for anybody out there?
[ ms. J.. mungkin nanti.. hehe i'll try ok? come over to the boutique la.. ehh u all come laa!! nyampah la, sorang pun tak dtg pun lagi! ]

21. most unforgettable moment?
[ the day i got my SPM results.. the one yg dpt Grade 1 tu of coz.. hehhehe.. i sacrificed alot utk tu ok! the relationship. sakit hati. ish banyak la.. ]

22. anything u regret of doing?
[ hmm... u asking someone who thinks using her HEART.. mmg la byk yg nyesal nya.. hehe.. how i can let everything go is a mystery la.. ]

23. where r u right now?
[ at home. ]

24. where do u want to be instead?
[ i dunno. i want to go on a holiday... ehh, someone going to Merlb i heard.. hehe.. bestnya! ]

25. what time is it?
[ 3.39am]

26. missing anybody?
[ hahaha ]

27. how's the weather?
[ ntah. i hope its raining. ]

28. what do u do for a living?
[ nuthing yet. hehe.. masih disponsor oleh suamiku. i will soon kerja. i want to sit kat cubicle kecik pun jadik la... haha.. penat2 jer ada degree kan? haha ]

29. what do u wish to do for a living?
[ anything to do with events. late nites. tags. cameras. celebrations. hmmm... thats why i like events kan... to celebrate... i love to celebrate things..! hhhmmm... see, how surveys can do to u...?? ]

30. what do u wish to have right now in ur hands?
[ make dat 'cash' Ms J...!! skang ni jugak i pegi membelibelaahhh.. hehe ]

stories? later ya? saya tidak berada dlm keadaan yg tenang. takde apa yg seronok dah rasanya. harap maaf.

Saturday, October 21

raya!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
&
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!

Tuesday, October 17

look alike






akak ET pun ada? adoi...!!! takleh blah tul!!


perghh... HAYDEN tu!! power power!

Monday, October 16

logo

HI... so finally.. an entry ya?
ok, i need ur opinion(s)...

dah siap dah the boutique's logo.. and we haf decided to put this as the logo and also use this colour :)
when everything is finalized, dah settle la...

dah lama sgt nak post it up here tapi tak pernahnya ada time.. so, now.. post la kat sini.. cam

by the way, when Min* came to send the pics, he advised to use black/white for our colour. company dier pulak kan? hihih its also nice, ive tried.. but the aunties didnt agree. so.. hubby gave me the idea to use pink or purple. more catchy and attrative for a boutique rite? so, heres the hasil.. ;p

feedback from the owners, auntie Gizelle* and Mom loves it. Auntie Cheryl said she pun setuju. onli Auntie Pat wants it in Brown like what the Feng Shui Master suggested.. aiyaoo... ni masalah la designer kalau nak kena lawan nak feng shui master ker... apa master ker... so, i hope she will change her mind...

the boutique next door Molique* pakai colour orange.. quite similar kan ngan light brown... so BORING Kan light brown..!! ahh.. how can i persuade itu Auntie PAT?

nvm, let me know what YOU think.. ;)


the logo :

the name card :

pls tell me which is better? with or without the dark part at the contact number.

*front of the namecard will be the logo


paper bag : with black string or white string?

so pls tell me what u think ok? kalau buruk ker.. apa pa jer comment let me know.. can be blunt.. i dun care.. just be honest ;) thanks!

bubye!

Thursday, October 5

no me ames



[translation]

No Me Ames /Jennifer Lopez & Mark Anthony [From Album : On The 6]

MA: Dime porque lloras
JL: De felicidad
MA: Y porque te ahogas?
JL: Por la soledad
MA: Di porque me tomas
MA: Fuerte asi, en tus manos
MA: Y tus pensamientos
MA: Te van llevando.

JL: Yo te quiero tanto
MA: Y porque sera?
JL: Loco testarudo
JL: No lo dudes mas
JL: Aunque en el futuro
JL: Haya un muro enorme
JL: Yo no tengo miedo
JL: Quiero enamorarme.

MA: No me ames, porque piensas
MA: Que parezco diferente
JL: Tu no piensas que es lo justo
JL: Ver pasar el tiempo juntos
MA: No me ames, que comprendo
MA: La mentira que seria
JL: Si tu amor no merezco
JL: No me ames mas, quedate otro dia.

MA: No me ames, porque estoy perdido
MA: Porque cambie el mundo, porque es el destino
MA: Porque no se puede, somos un espejo
MA: Y tu asi serias lo que yo de mi reflejo
JL: No me ames, para estar muriendo
JL: Dentro de una guerra llena de arrepentimientos
JL: No me ames, para estar en tierra, quiero alzar el vuelo
JL: Con tu gran amor por el azul del cielo.

MA: No se que decirte, esa es la verdad
MA: Si la gente quiere, sabe lastimar
JL: Tu y yo partiremos, ellos no se mueven
JL: Pero en este cielo sola no me dejes
MA: No me dejes, no me dejes
MA: No me escuches, si te digo no me ames
JL: No me dejes, no desarmes
JL: Mi corazon con ese no me ames
MA: No me ames, te lo ruego
MA: Mi amargura dejame
JL: Sabes bien, que no puedo
JL: Que es inutil, que siempre te amare.

MA: No me ames, pues te hare sufrir
MA: Con este corazon que se lleno de mil inviernos
JL: No me ames, para asi olvidarte de tus dias grises
JL: Quiero que me ames solo.

MA: No me ames, tu y yo volaremos
MA: Uno con el otro y seguiremos siempre juntos
JL: Este amor es como el sol que sale tras de la tormenta
JL: Como dos cometas en la misma estrella.

MA: No me ames
JL: No me ames
MA: No me ames
No me ames
No me ames
No me ames
No me ames

Tuesday, October 3

johans car!

hi...

got a call from bro. he was supposed to balik to Melaka yesterday. but, just like the sister, he went elsewhere 1st. hahaha... so, he was with his gf. and today, they were out on the road, got a lil (lil ker?) fight with another driver. bro can be real mean when he's angry.. just like the sister.. :) we can keep cool till dah takleh, we can be so bloody mean that u dont even wanna see our faces again. so the fight. the gf kept telling him to cool off. jgn layan. but he continued. and when they arrived at her place. lepaked. he came down and saw his car was hmm.. i havent seen it yet, but what he told me, someone dah pecahkan his mirror and also the side mirrors terus ilang. OH GOSH THAT IS A NEW CAR OK!! he was cool when he called me. asked for advice. theres nuthing else i could tell but to tell mom bout it. seriously. he shud make a report ya? how can i help kan? he admited he faults coz layan gaduh, saying "yalahh.. salah gak, sbb tgh marah giler tadi"

i asked bout my parents reaction. he said " u know mama la, she wont marah. but will give that dissapointed look" the look i lagi takut and tak nak tgk drpd kena marah! i pity her la.. i mean even dad la.. hafta deal with this shit, bulan puasa.. they are so tired from work and terus gi to the boutique. blum balik umah lagi. and now kena settle kan hal ni plak. gosh!

so now, my parents and dier kat Cyber Police Station. i just called. they are waiting for some ppl to come and see what they can do. so ppl... jgn la berani sgt when u are in the car... u never know what these crazy ppl could do to u... i hope everything goes well.

at times, i rasa lega, that im not under them anymore, u know how la me can get into trouble 24/7.. at least minus one kid they haf to worry bout...

more stories, later la. im not gonna call mom and ask bout it. i know shes super upset. she dah byk menda nak kena handle. so, im keeping quite. gonna be a good girl, wake up early and be at the boutique as soon as i can. :)

hahaha... thats kindda like what my bro and i haf la. if one of us is in trouble, the other kena jadi baik and bg support to the parents. well, i think most of u pun buat kan. hahah..

anyways, about the boutique. my bosses, wanted the logo design as soon as possible. so they can start with the advertising board, name cards, and paperbags. so i spent the weekend finishing them. i finished rite before sahur last nite. :) emailed to them.

and only today they get the chance to see it. and they like the designs. i will upload them as soon as they haf made up their mind utk pilih. :) i didnt design anything fancy that i normally would. :) they wanted something simple but classy. hmm.. and earth colours. y? y earth colour u must ask.. because, that was the advice from the feng shui master. haha.. earth colour kasi ong sama boutique itewwww... hahah so can u imagine, my logo design will be viewed like few thousand of ppl (acehhh)... and be used on paper bags and all... ? muahahahah... this would be my 2nd time designing logo... :) nicey nicey! and 2nd time design bussiness card :) yg dulu was for my hubby's old co. ohh, thanks to my baby for the help. kata creative director.

my wedding album dah siap. was supposed to pick em up last weekend. but when mom masukkan duit to Min's* account, sekali they said the system tergendala plak.. atok dier! and tu telah slow downkan the process. promised min* that i would masukkan duit by early last week, but mom was still waiting for her cheque utk clear. last2 baru saturday she dapat buat. but she paid everything dah ler. i called him up today, he said, its okie if i want to collect the album 1st. i plak said, its ok. dah settle ngan bank, baru we all rasa nak amik. bussiness is bzness. frens still frens kan? so he promised that he will come by to the boutique to pass the album to me as soon as suma dah settle. isnt he sweet? :) yeahh, SULIK*'s students togetherness! hahah..

yeap, i cant wait for the album!

ohh.. last saturday we went for a dinner. celebrate abah's bday dinner. a last minute thingy. ada ker dier nak gi kat penang vilage jer? waduhhh... waduhh... apa apa pun, we all went to Chikuye-tei, Istana Hotel. the best Japanese Buffet la! in KL of coz... :) both of us arrived around 8pm. yeah, massive jam! but i get to eat Japanese. i was happy. havent got the time to buy him anything yet, will definitely do dat soon! now that i haf my own money. yeap, i got my gaji oredi!

and today, i woke up late. got ready. stayed at the boutique till 5:30pm. alot of ppl came, but sadly i didnt any sale. im worried. y ha? i made frens with the ppl who came in. they said we haf alot of nice things. but y havent i dpt any sales? maybe i was so proud with my previous sales kot? hmm... im seriously worried. all i do in the boutique is to buat stock check. gosh i love it! haha.. oh, today i was playing around with the cash register, trying to figure out camna nak wat setting kan.. haha sekali dier rosak. mampus aku! haha.. but luckily, i got it fixed.

hmm.. wat else. ari ni telah berjaya masak 2 resipi. :) takde cacat cela. :) alhamdulillah. we cooked lemak cili api ayam & sambal tumis udang. sedap gilos! haha. resepi nanti ya? btw, ive updated my recipe blog. thanks to pat.

and again, i dpt my cekodok. my sayang was so baik hati to go to Tesco and buy em for me. met Mama when he was there. :)

hubby masuk tido awal today. he must be really sleepy or terlampau boring. i hoggd the PC 24/7. and get real bising when he's online. not fair? i know! haha. im not a TV person ok! so nak tukar channel tu bosan ok!

i dah start complain tu.. i guess im now sleepy. and frustrated that i cannot watch my OC. theres sumthing wrong with my DVD player :( ada sesapa nak sponsor DVD player? heheh..

ok ok.. im going to sleep. remember bout my plan nak jadi a good daughter and come early to boutique esok? yaahh... hafta go now... nites!

lovey!