awanpurple is my sanctuary. A place where I go to escape, where I release (almost) all of my thoughts, my fears, my wants, my triumphs, my desires...my me and let them run free, without the rest of the world knowing. Because the world doesn't matter - only those who matters to me matter. To them I welcome you to my most inner me.
Wednesday, February 15
a day after vday
hey all...
how was vday? good? :)
I HAD A GREAT TIME !! :D
nope, i didnt spend it with mr3003. we dun celebrate pun. i went out dinner with Pat and Ard. during the day, we were online and chat la... pastu i pickd them up from work and then patutnya nak pegi makan chicken chop at my couzin's place, but that place open at 8pm. tak dpt la, and i was so hungry we decided to go to uptown.. like ol days ha gals?
we all had yong tau foo.. (is that how u spell it?) and i had kuey teow curry from tony's. wahhh so sedap to makan with the keropok! wahhliaoo!! but sebab my kuey teow curry was super la panas, and my lidah terbakar kay! ad pulak tergigit lidah.. and fat tergigit pipi..!! apa kes kan? sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit jer nih... hahah cam tau tau jer kan! hahaha... we had fun talking and GOSSIPING! hahah lawak sial... mostly bout weddings...!! but not bout mine... talking bout others is more fun i think... muahahha
oh, then we hantar ardjai to her place. wanted to singgah at msJ's place to give a lil suprise visit, but sadly she was not at home. celebrating with her date.. heheheh... so takde la melepak.. we just hantar ardjai balik.
how much fun can u get with ur gals kan? crazy byk...!! we gelak like no tomoro... esp kat uptown. i think everyone was looking kan babeS?
well hantar pat pulak after dat, sempat lagi nak lepak.. around 1130 baru la sampai umah... chat ngan msJ plak.. wahh, finally la dpt chat with her.. since someone dah ada laptop... ;) wah, if only she tak ada class awal, sure best dpt chat with her.. two gals with family punyer 'kekurangan' which is masalah membuat keputusan. hahah..
and last nite tak dpt tido... i slept nearly around 530am. watched wicker park... man, it was good. apsal la tak tgk kat movie dulu. i thought it was crapy! ehehe online baper kali ntah, last2 dpt gaks tido...
woke up today, checked my fone and saw 2 missed calls from Amee. SMSed her and tanya naper called giler awal pagi... tak keja ker.. and she said she nak try to wake me up coz mppj dah start nak saman kereta! ceshhh!! bengang! terus la bangun and online... coz amee takleh nak ckp lama.. she said ckp online jer la...
around 4:30pm.. i went down to beli makanan. and time tu pulak.. the internet connection dah rosak... so i watched TV jer laa... and biler hujan dah reda... try to betulkan the connection balik.
around 830pm... i got really pissed. some wont understand y. too bad for me then. sama jer kalau simpan and bottle up my feelings... im no where even kalau bgtau... im NOT supposed to rasa apa i rasa... coz its nuthing... just my stupid saiko insecure nyer feeling. deal it myself. to some, apa i rasa kebanyakan nyer menda super remeh.. like.. " MY PROBLEM IS BIGGER THAN YOURS, COUNT URSELF LUCKY!" well, mmg la.. i do agree sometimes coz i haf wonderful parents yg tak menyusahkan my head and tambah masalah i. but im one human being.. i DO HAF PROBLEMS... big or small.. still mine.. still mine utk tanggung... and being the person that i am.. terlampau sibuk to jaga hati org.. makan hati la cik kak! sometimes, i just want someone to listen and understand. i dun expect u to settlekan... coz ur problem is bigger than mine...kan? everyone i percaya, ada capacity yg org tu bleh tanggung. mcm some ppl, kalau kena dump la ngan bf, ada yg bleh bunuh diri sbb tak dapat nak terima beban yang terlampau tu. and some, can just get up.. move on. the ones yg move on ni... very la the kuat and im sure ada org membantu. takde sapa bleh hidup sendiri. hmmm... penggunaan bahasa melayu ku makin terel la plak biler merapu.
anyways... called up my gals. suma pun tgh crisis. mmg laa, adat kan... suma relationship sure ada gaduh.. bak kata org.. the spice.. ur head la!! bosan aku gaduh2 nih...!! suma kerja aku tak jadi...! anyways lepaked with them kat shah alam. talked. we conclude yg guys haf this gathering each season to make us rasa tak best kot? ahahah.. mungkin benar?! dulu2 masalah dilupakan ngan gi KL and dance all nite long... but since suma pun dah insaf... dah kahwin.. and dah nak kahwin... hahah.. suma cam ahhh bosan... lepak jer la kat shah alam nih... meriah gak shah alam masa malam kan? we didnt lepak kat tempat rempit.. excuse me..
and msJ sorry la i tak gi lepak with u today... the weather cam tak best.. buat i rasa cam jauh nya nak gi sana... apa apa girl, u hang in there ok? biasala... SABAR jer laa... apa lagi nak buat kan?
and here i am.. dah sampai umah... dah lama dah tak post anything here kan? so nih la dier...
vday means nuthing to me... but i had a great vday in year 2000. nope, no candlelight dinner shit[sorri bout i think its so drama melayu swasta..] or gifts... it was the firstday yg we spent together... from pagi sampai la malam... cam super best.. tak plan apa pun. lepaked at home, watched TV, ate, then to his place, watch TV, lepaked, went out.. cam very the manja like that. the wholleeee time. nah, i dun believe its because of Vday. kebetulan jer. awww... saying this make me rindu the old 'us'..
merayakan valentines day pun salah disisi agama.. wahh.. kata dah insaf kan? slowly la insaf..
everyday pun vday kan? hahhaah RITEEEE...............................
anyways... im sleepy now.. nak gi tido... kalau dpt la... rasa cam nak makan rendang la.. nasi lemak BP sedap nih... lagi la nak kena diet... lagi kuat selera.
nite!
Tuesday, February 14
Sunday, February 5
i cant sleep
i went to mr3003's place tadi. b4 pergi singgah sat kat Rasta TTDI to beli nasi lemak since i belum makan the whole day lagi. my parents punya la terel, left at home sorang2 coz they tot i was still sleeping. nvm. dah siap tapau, makan at his place, wah agak sedap tapi still cannot lawan nasi lemak BP.. and i think next time nak makan, mesti order ayam goreng. coz the rendang not so nice la. like baru belajar masak like that... they put all the ingrediants dalam tu.. janji ada rasa skit.. they all dah ngaku tu rendang.. haiyahh.. can or not? what business is this? aiyooo...
lepaked wit him.. tgk our prettypeekturessss together.. that was fun! then tgk pulak citer "A HAUNTING" kat Discovery Channel.. yea laa... Channel Rasmi umah 1806 tu.. hehe.. and it was my first time. giler best and takut. this episode citer pasal "Hell House".. ada skit cam ala ala Amityville Horror like that. The house ada 3 spirits duduk kat sana.. 2 human spirit and 1 demon la.. aisey! malam2 the kids kena kacau.. tarik selimut la.. katil gerak2 la.. kena rasuk la.. tapi last2 the spirits pun pergi la sbb dah buat acara menghalau hantu tu suma.. tapi later ada spirit datang balik eh yang? i cant remember la the ending.. got gangguan abit.. eheemm.. heheh
lepaks2 lagi.. then mr3003 pun dah start ngantuk coz ye la penat.. been out since 6am. i let him sleep and i pun charlozzz la ker umah Amee.. and she called me up coz nampak my car.. hehe.. ajak lepak..
dah la sama block, turun lift 13 tingkat jer.. heheh.. sampai2 jer.. her sis bukak kan pintu.. dier pulak terbaring sakit kepala.. perghh... selama i kawan ngan dia.. first time i tgk dier sakit ok!! laa hai... sentiasa la aktifkan dier tu.. sakit pun jap jer, pastu she dah ok balik.. and we started talking la.. so many things.. nak kata serious pun.. bley tahan gak la.. about marriage... relationship... pastu termasuk pasal kasut! heheh.. suma girly stuff la kan... hehe.. been so long la kan.. imagine.. 8 years..?! we were close la masa kat high skool.. and baru la skang nak patch thngs up.. tapi takde hal sebenarnya.. coz we can still talk cam no change at all... like how we used to talk zaman sekolah dulu. maybe topic jer la serious skit.. hehe.. tu la menda i paling sayang all my close frens... no matter baper lama tak jumpa.. tak ckp.. but when we jumpa balik.. nuthing yg tukar between us.. no one yg cam nak lagi poyo ker.. ckp bagus ker kan.. hishhh... sayangs u allsss laa..!
sambil lepak2 tu... she gave me a book that she super suka.. "a walk to remember".. some of u mesti pernah dgr kan...? well the movie.. she said to antara buku she paling suka and recommended me to baca gak.. since taste kita dua nih bab buku mmg sama.. tak fikir panjang.. and a few other books she nak kasi but takper la kan.. jgn tinggi sangat citer2 tu.. heheh.. sekali 2 buku nak baca kan.. and also masa in her room she pasal her jazzy jazz tunes.. laaa.. teringat laks kat mr3003... mesti u suka punya la bie..
paling best.. she start bukak her albums.. hehe.. nampak la gambar2 i zaman dolu dolu... eheh.. nak tgk? hehe.. here... kelakar.. jgn gelak..

masa nih dalam bus, on the way balik from camp with Amee.
ni pun sama... tambah Jo jer... my face so selebet! hehe
hmm dlm bus lagi.. ni pulak on the pergi for an event... p
anjat bukit ker apa.. some rakan muda thingy la if im not mistaken... i cant remember camne i ngan amee terpilih plak.. hehe..
L-R : Arab (Hashraf), Miqdad, Me, Amee, Al Faizal.. depan tu Jannah (gosshhh i hated her) and Andy.
heheh i like this pic.. ni dalam our class.. which class i cant tell.. suma sama jer ruper..
Clockwise : Amee, Nora, Ednie (our junior), Bibi (yeah look how much she dah tukar!!), Frisha (also Junior) and ME (and how much ive changed gak!!hehe) !!
ni masa form 4 kena perform for kongsi raya.. hehe.. i cant remember apa lagu we all nyanyi.. click on the picture la if u nak spot me.. heheh.. ni pun selebet with short hair.. jgn gelak! hehe... yg ada merah2 tu.. saja nak padam cara org malas kat org2 i tak nak ada dlm my blog jer.. hehe
hmmm.. itu saja la buat masa nih... sure dah penat u all tgk gambar kan? hehe.. so i think i better go now.. nak try tidoq~
nites! love! adios!
Saturday, February 4
my +prettypeektures+
my preetypeektures
min just came at 2 am just now to hantar the album. aiyoo... he just came back from an event in Kota Damansara... and then balik to his place coz the wife yg susun the pix tadi... and patah balik to SD utk hantar gambar...
i will upload pix nanti ya? heheh..
happy nyer...
Thursday, February 2
Stickwitu - The Pussycat Dolls
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin')
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
Wednesday, February 1
mine: June 6, 1981 = Saturday/ 03 Sya'ban 1401 A.H
mr.3003: March 30, 1981 = Monday/ 23 Jumaada Al-Awal 1401 A.H
ms.Pat: August 19, 1981 = Wednesday/ 18 Shawwal 1401 A.H.
ms.Ad: March 10, 1981 = Tuesday/ 3 Jumaada Al-Awal 1401 A.H
ms.J: October 23, 1984 = Tuesday/ 27 MuHarram 1405 A.H.
http://www.rabiah.com/convert/
